I’m not worried.
For one of the first times in my life, I’m really actually not worried.
Last week I had a minor melt down, just a little freak out about my life in general and whatever it is that’s coming next. But I was talking to one of my teammates, Kevin, about it and straight up he tells me that I’m making things up to be stressed about because I feel like I should be stressed out.
I’ll be the first to admit and my dad can vouch for me too, that I am a worrier. I worry and get stressed and let all my thoughts wind up so tight that sometimes I have little melt downs. That’s the way that its always been, especially when it comes to making big decisions, I just worry.
But that’s not how it’s supposed to be.
The Lord offers us peace that surpasses all understanding.
In the midst of chaos, when were making big decisions, when things don’t go the way we expected them to- Jesus gives us peace.
It doesn’t make sense either.
It doesn’t make sense to have peace when the ground is pulled out from under you, or 25 kids are screaming and fighting all around you, or you’re trying to figure out what you’re going to be doing in the next season.
But friends, Jesus doesn’t really make sense, at least not by the worlds standards.
It wasn’t until Kevin said that that it really hit me, that the peace that I have, the peace that Jesus offers us doesn’t make sense to me either.
So here I am again, asking The Lord to take over and renew my mind. I’m choosing to receive the peace that I am being offered and let go of all the worry.
It’s funny really, because I should be worried- past June I have no idea what my life is going to look like and I’m supposed to be figuring out what I’m going to do with my life.
But here’s the thing, I know that God is faithful. I know that he will always come through and I will be exactly where I am supposed to be tomorrow and next week and next month.
So here I am, not worried at all, just dwelling in the presence of The Lord and in the plans that he has for me today. And let me tell you, it rocks, I never want to leave this place.
And it’s only now since I’ve begun to ‘stop and smell the roses’ that I’ve noticed how many roses that The Lord has planted along my path. He has hugs, conversations, and all kinds of surprises planned for me very single day.
And oh baby, is it good.
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“and oh baby, is it good.”
love this. love where you are and where the lord is taking you. he has a plan and he will let you in on the details as you need to know them. until then, enjoy the roses. also, i’m probably going to borrow a little bit of your faith and your peace during this season for myself. don’t worry – i’ll pay you back.
so proud of you, katie. cannot even tell you how proud.
love you heaps.
This was a great reminder for me princess- good to hear the things God is doing in you. Life decisions are tough especially when we don’t exactly see where Jesus wants us next. Joseph didn’t have to know what he would see he trusted Jesus’ promise of the promised land and to his dying day had enough faith to tell them to bring his bones in his box to it. He trusted Jesus even when He didn’t see the promise in front of him. praying for you girl and all He has in store for you.
Hi Katie,
I sometimes read your blog, and it hits me every time! I loved what you said how Jesus doesn’t make sense by the world’s standards. It’s so true, and so hard to remember that. I am going through a similar time in my life where the future scares me. I’m graduating college and leaving the past 4 years of my life, jumping into a full time job a week after, and I have no idea how I got so little time to process entering this complete new chapter in my life. It’s been hard to find that precious peace Jesus gives lately, and to trust Him my new life is His plan for me. Keep blogging and sharing Jesus. It was just the sweet reminder I needed that Christ has me in his hands.